Shawn: Today marks the fourth anniversary of your death. I think about you everyday and I know that you are with me. I know your spirit is free and you are at peace. That being said, this day is still particularly difficult for me. I can't help but think of you as you were in your darkest hour, and it hurts. God damn does it hurt. I know that you are more than your death, but it is still a part of who you are and it's a part of who I am too and it deserves to be acknowledged. So I guess that's what I'm using this day for...I remember all the goods times and laughter, but today I remember the sadness too. Because it existed as a part of you and I want to honor all of who you were. I wish things would have been different. I wish I could talk to you and laugh with you and hug you one more time. I love you Shawn. I hope that your spirit knows and feels that. Be forewarned, when I see you again I'm probably going to punch you square in the nose...but then you better brace yourself because I'm going to hold you tight in my arms. For now I will just hold you tight in my heart. Okay? Love always, Kim

Big Brother: Could not help but think of you the past few days as a friend of mine and his family dealt with the loss of their darling, precious little boy who was only two and a half years old. Nothing of that little guys passing or yours make sense to me and I am really struggling right now for some understanding. You have been gone for two years and 54 days and it still hurts just as much now as it did back then. I just wished you knew how much love and support you had and how many people miss you so much! I know you and my friends son are in a better place now and that gives me peace but it still doesn't fill the void you left behind. Still missing you... Your Little Brother, Kent

There are so many things I wish I could share with you. Movies, quotes, jokes, stories, laughs...the list goes on and on. There is a part of me missing because you're not here. Sometimes I feel your presence though...I was helping construct an underwater obstacle course for the scuba kids last weekend and I know you were there with me. It was like my hands became your hands. I know you'd be proud of me if you were here. I love and miss you stupidhead. I wish you could come back.

March 13, 2010: Today would have been you 41st birthday. I wish I could see your smile, hear your laugh, and give you a big hug. I miss you so much Shawn. Love always, Kim

Shawn in his own words, July 23, 2009: I was just thinking to myself, what if the zombie invasion never happens? If anyone ever sees my storage locker I'm gonna look pretty... Then I watched the news and felt better. Yep, we really are going to hell in a hand basket.

Shawn in his own words, August 29, 2009: I was on my way out of the department on Thurs when the boss stops me in the hall and asks if i have a minute. I'm thinking, "great, what did I do to make it on her radar". But she tells me about some great feed back from both staff and parents. What a great couple of weeks, these are the moments I love this job.

I hope you are at peace and living happily with our King. I can't wait to be there too and be away from this ugly place. My work is not done here but not a day goes by that you are not fondly thought of, deeply missed and always loved! I miss you Shawn.

Shawn's friend Daisy shared this with me via email... "I met and had the pleasure of working with Shawn at Baptist Hospital (in Miami). I'd only known him about a year or so and enjoyed being around him very much. Not only was he an excellent nurse and co-worker, Shawn was very intelligent and extremely funny. He always had something to say about everything and was very good at making me smile." Thank you for your kind word Daisy:) Very Sincerely, Kim

Dear Shawn, So tonight we had the family over so we could go through all of your stuff. I never knew you were such a pack rat! Dad said I could keep a couple of your medical text books and your human anatomy books. I'm pretty excited about those! I'm really bummed that I never got to talk to you about all that kind of stuff. From what I hear, you were some amazing nurse. Today I saw a couple pictures of some of your patients. They are so cute! You really did make a difference in A LOT of lives. I want to be a lot like you someday. I want to help kids. I want to make a difference in families lives so they always remember me. I want to be able to try new things and go on adventures. I want to travel the world and see all the cool things that you saw. I want to live in Florida and then move to California. I want to explore the oceans and see things that no one has ever seen before. I want to take pictures of everything that I do. I want to meet new people and maybe fall in love. I want to be just like you. I get sad when I see pictures of me and you together. I use to be able to make you do some crazy things. You would sit very still as I put my dress up clothes on you. We danced the whole night away at my mom's wedding. I'm going to put that picture on my dresser. I feel happy when I think about how you are in a better place, but then get sad again when I think about you not being there on holidays anymore. I know how it feels sometimes when I don't think things could get any worse. If that ever happens to me again I am going to think of you and how strong of a person you were when you were here. I can't wait to see you again and talk about all the things we never got the chance to talk about. I'm I thankful to have had you as my uncle. I will never forget you. I love you. Love, Megan

Peace to you, Shawn. When I remember the library at Lafollette, I remember YOU - and I always will.

You will be missed so very much. I was blessed and honored to have you as a friend. Life is less bright without you here. I will hold your memory close and smile everytime I think of you. Please be at peace and look over your friends and family as you have always done. God Bless.

Dear Shawn, your Dad and I will miss our conversations about your adventures, your faithful companion Beau and life on the West Coast. Beau is missing you so much and spends her time laying among your personal items. We are doing our best to love and care for her in ways that you must have done in the past. She loves to play catch and be outside enjoying the sunshine. We so enjoyed and thank you for coming the long distance to attend our wedding. We will continue to keep you in our hearts forever with much love, your Dad,Eileen and Isabeau too!

Shawn, I am beside myself just knowing you are not here. The tears still haven't stopped. You were always and always will be our favorite private duty nurse. The whole family always looked forward to your days here with Bobby - or as you would call him,"Roberto". You brought much laughter and humor to all of us. Something I will forever miss. You unselfishly gave so much of yourself to other - I admire you! Now the world is a little less brighter... We love and miss you, Shawn!!! Ann, Bobby & family

Shawn, I will always remember your good humor, clever comments, and charming personality. ~Imelda Agurto, Florida

I knew you as a friend of a friend. Yet you accepted me instantly as your own friend. I enjoyed our walks in Tobago, diving with you, and your smile and sense of humor. You'll be missed. JoAnn

I've known Shawn since the 6th grade. I just can't believe he's gone. I was hoping go see him next year. He will be missed very much.

Shawn, I miss you. You visited me in Florida when I was feeling lonely, and you helped me feel at home here. You've always made me laugh, learn how to debate and express myself honestly, and because of you, I'm starting to learn scuba diving so that I can experience the joy and beauty that you loved so much in our oceans. I know you are in a peaceful place now.....you are missed here. Amy Hartsough

Shawn, I want you to know that I have always looked up to you. I deeply admire your courage, your sense of adventure, and your independent spirit. You have touched my life more than you could ever know. I will carry you in my heart until we meet again. Love always, Your little sister Kim

Big Brother: I cannot believe your really gone... my heart just aches. I will forever remember all the things we shared growing up and will keep the memories of the good times we had in the forefront of my mind. You touched many lives in your short time here on earth especially those of my children. I wish I could turn back time and tell you this in person but unfortunately I cannot. Although I know you are in a better place now I will still miss you but I will keep you in my heart forever. Love, Your little brother, Kent

Shawn, you brought a lot of joy into my life, and I will always treasure our friendship. I miss you more than I can say. Amy Sabo

Shawn, you touched so many hearts, and brought so many smiles into this world, I'm having a hard time believing that you're gone. I miss you, and will continue to miss you in the years to come.

Oh Shawnie...I'm so thankful I had you for a brother. We shared a lot of laughs and I will always treasure our time together. I love you so much and I miss you something fierce.

Wow...I can't believe it. Your love for diving was contagious, your belief in human rights admirable and your spirit is still alive. We miss you - you touched more people than you probably realized.

Great weather here, never really changes much all year. Not much new, I'm learning how to speak Chinese, and Dinosaur; frankly, there's not much difference between them. I'm planning on winning the lotto in the next few months, will you run off into the sunset with me if I do?

Sweet!! I just got an email from the Bank of China, they're holding a $5.5 million inheritance payment for me. All I have to do is send all my personal info, a copy of my passport photo and a "small fee" and I'll be stinking rich!!

I want to be a pirate but the market really sucks right now; plus there's that whole naval intervention stuff. So I'm doing the next closest thing and looking into Law Schools instead.

I am going to miss all of Shawn's wisecracks and funny comebacks, but most of all I am going to miss his forever smiling face and the true wisdom this man was able to share with so many people. I miss you already buddy!! Nate

You will be missed more then you knew . . .